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I'm still fighting the echoed voices of people who used to be my friends, telling me that I shouldn't try to socialize anymore and that I should go back into my shell forever and die.

It's been nearly five years. I have new friends but I don't let them very close. And I still don't generally go to places where I'd have to ask someone for a ride there or back.

I'm actually very surprised that people have put up with me, with the attitude I've been putting out. If I can make my attitude improve...

well, that won't be enough, I have to be good at stuff too... something useful, because this rubik's cube thing has taken me as far as it ever will.

it's taking more bravery than I thought it would to spend any time at Heatsync Labs. The people there have stayed more current in technology than I have. But I can learn so much.

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oh I remember why I don't date.

because it takes considerable effort for me to get places, and it's a common tactic for women to just blow off a date completely for no reason.

and also because I haven't really given anyone a reason to date me.

it's just as well; I think I ate too much happy hour sushi and I don't feel so good.