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I still can't forgive myself because that demon is still there.

The demon thinks my problem is that I am too nice and concillatory and tells me that if I try to show people who;s boss, they'll respect me.

And when people react badly, it tells me that this proves they aren't worth my trouble, and I should stop caring.

But my real problem is this stink of death that drives people away, and my guilt about things I've done just makes it worse.