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suppose I were happily married at age 50

i'm 43 now

how do you imagine that process could possibly happen

i kinda had a lunch date but it got postponed and then she invited a male coworker so I guess I'm out of the running.

but this isn't the first time me having an appointed time and place to meet someone, and daring to think I had some 1% chance of a relationship or intimacy to happen with her, and then the universe noticed and decided to add a random dude to the process.

i think this is normal, I don't give off the correct vibe