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The phone number she gave me was the same one as that on her business card. She sells cars at a major local dealership. No wonder she called back a hung-up-on-voice-mail call on her cell phone.

I'd tell you more about the last 24 hours, but I've been livejournaling too much from work already today. On the other hand, a big huge project I'm doing is still going along very speedily. Maybe livejournal is good for productivity!

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On DVDtalk, Fight Club author David Palahniuk was asked in this interview what one thing he wanted people to take from his work, and he answered:

That we need to be more comfortable and more accepting of chaos, and things that we see as disastrous. Because it is only through those things we can be redeemed and change. We should welcome disaster, we should welcome things that we generally run away from. There is a redemption available in those things that is available nowhere else.

My life seems to be a bit stagnant. It's comfortable, but let's face it, I want more. I have goals that I'm not meeting, and the sad truth is, I'm not very motivated. So I want a new job in a new city, maybe even a new career. What am I doing about it? Well, I could go to school, but I'd have to work around work. I could find a new job, but then I'd have to look for one. I could just pick up and move, but it's a little hard to justify just yet. Psychologically, the motivation isn't there.

Then I remembered my original dream of seeing Europe, of backpacking and hostelling the way students do. I realize it's gotten harder to put that kind of time away since I graduated, moved out, and entered the workforce, but how much harder will it be when I'm older, and maybe have a more demanding job? Maybe I'll have a mortgage, or I'll get snared by a girlfriend who won't let me do anything fun. Or, even worse, a wife and kid. Sure, it doesn't sound like me, but who knows what kind of excuses time will bring?

That may be the wrench I need to throw in the machinery to set off that primal instinct that will drive me to action, that will make me realize what's really at stake in the long run so that I can risk the confortable situation for the big money and the fabulous prizes.

In fact, as I examine it closely, my two-months-of-hostelling plan might be almost inescapably the most prudent thing to do at this point in my life.

Maybe I'll call these posts "the start of fun time."