HIDING

I'm working from home for the second time this week. I'm only supposed to do it once a week.

I also have to make sure to get my prescription refilled today.

precious pills

I just dropped in to pick up a prescription that had been written for me in advance for while the doctor was on vacation. It took 20 minutes. Multiple phones were ringing and faxes were coming in and the office was mayhem.

gaaaah. And it's 12 days until I actually get to see the psychiatrist so I can adjust my prescription. And then I wait however long it takes for the prescription to clear my head. And then, if I'm lucky and it's not the wrong adjustment, then I can start making forward progress instead of just treading water.

I'd love to change psychiatrists, but, experience has taught me that new patients take longer to get in.

I wonder if I should go to the hospital or my primary care doctor and get it adjusted there instead, but I figure I'm making the psychiatrist's job harder by going behind his back, and that puts the impetus on me to go find a new one anyway. Not to mention that I've been speaking to a handful of emergency counselors over the past month in addition to all that, and I'm worried that my insurance might deliver a surprise bill to me as a result.

in the meantime, the battle with myself continues...

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The good news is that I don't seem to be bothered as much by noise coming from outside my apartment.

I don't know if it's because people are quieter, or my mind is just on other things.